Guest Post: From Pornography to Testimony

Today is the first of my guest posts. I “met” SundiJo Graham by discovering her blog. SundiJo is a writer and speaker who loves Jesus. Her story is one of redemption. She survived sexual abuse, a broken relationship with her alcoholic father, abandonment, fear, pride, a food addiction, and more. She shares her testimony to offer hope, lead others to experience a transforming relationship with Jesus, and provide a dose of laughter along the way. I’m honored to have her share her heart with you today and hope you will be blessed by her story, “From Pornography to Testimony.”

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From Pornography to Testimony

by SundiJo Graham

http://www.sundijo.com/

The words of Brandon Heath’s “I’m not who I was” is rolling around in my head.

This weekend I was reminded by an old friend whom I haven’t seen in years about some things of my past – some not so great things. He brought memories back to me that I wasn’t proud of. Flashbacks filled my mind as I read his words to me. As he laughed about those memories, my heart broke and I started to let shame fill my soul.

As the color drained from my face and I fought to hold the tears back, God reminded me that I had two choices:

1. Let the devil steal my joy
2. Move forward and remember the forgiveness I have received

For a brief moment I chose option one.

Only for a moment…

For the past few days I have been thinking about the grace and forgiveness God has given me. Undeserved grace. All the things I have done in my past and He still loves me. Wow!

Ten years ago I had a dream to run my own business. Do you know what I wanted to do?

I wanted to own my own porn shop.

No joke..

I had it all planned out. The name. All of it. Guess what else?

I made those plans while I wore a cross necklace around my neck. 

I had no idea what I was doing. I had no clue how deep into darkness I was. But today I realize. God pulled me out of a pit that I didn’t even realize I was in.

It’s amazing how our dreams change as God changes us.

Today I dream of sharing Jesus with hurting women. I dream of traveling the world sharing my testimony. I dream of millions of hurting people reading my book. Not for my glory, but for God’s.

2 Corinthians 5:17 reads,

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

Can I get a resounding amenah?!?

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Come alongside…What dream has God changed in your heart? Comment below…